April and May were rather interesting months for me.
I spent a lot of time being frustrated and annoyed. I wondered what could have been done differently.
At one point I wanted to lay everything bare to the world—here are ALL my frustrations internet! Who’s feeling the same?!
I’m thankful for good friends that I ran the idea by and instantly got on a call with me to talk it through and encouraged me to wait.
We all need friends like that.
I spent some time avoiding tasks and thoughts, diving deep into other thoughts, and to some extent, just let myself BE.
Here are some of my conclusions:
- I do not function well without sleep. I probably need an average of 7.5+ hours each night.
But I was averaging just under 6.5.
- Downtime is extremely important to me and my motivation. I wasn’t getting any quality downtime and what I did get was a “cheating” break when I felt I should be working (hello guilt cycle!).
- I also need time just to think, to be with myself. Not meditation (although that’s good too), but time to play with thoughts like a 5 year old might play with play-doh. Yep, it might be messy, but it’s also satisfying (and doesn’t happen without the first two in place).
I wish I could tell you that I’m now get 8 hours of sleep every night, that I schedule (and take!) downtime and that I leave myself “think play-time” and will now share the 5 easy steps so you too can have these things.
Alas, I’m a work in progress. And that’s actually a really good thing.
What I do have to share with you over the next several weeks are some of the results of my “think play-time.”
They are personal mindset breakthroughs, frustrations (and my realizations about them) and general aha’s.
I hope they spark something for you.